you make me smile, please stay for awhile <3

I haven't blogged in awhile,
I've been preoccupied in school- okay no BIG lie,
I've just been (in love)
:D





So, my boyfriend and I made 6 months on saturday ^_^
-6 months down, and 74 & 3 quarters of years to go.

I used to think love consisted of fighting, anger, and obligation.
I also used to think Amsterdam was somewhere south of Illinois.
It wasn't until I met him, 7 months ago that I learned
just what it takes to truely love myself, my life, and another being.

My heart beat feels like it has meaning, and I wake up with the thought of him every morning, rather then the usual "ugh I despise mornings more then working in shoprite"
He pretty much gives meaning to it all, and the gives me the motivation to do it all,

Most people are too busy searching for love, when really love has to find you, they try to force love, and wind up faking their love just as much as they fake and force happiness, you can't force fate, and with others love is usually right under their nose- they just do not appreciate it until its gone, Love is all about trial and error, through it you learn the do's and don'ts of a successful relationship, everyone is different and not everybody may have the same pet peeves, with one arguement comes along days of happiness, because through trial and error you learn the important things about eachother, and the right ways to make things work with one another, so don't be discouraged by the arguements and downfalls of a relationship, it comes along with appreciating it all when it seems it cannot get any better.

note to self:

TRIAL AND ERROR MAKES IT BETTER
IN SOME TWISTED REVERSE
PHYSICOLOGICAL WAY. :)

and this is probably not making any sense, but love doesn't make sense. you can never sum how you truely feel, because when your in love, your feelings are endless; so when you try to explain just the way you feel you wind up in some tongue twister; only with your heart and your mind mixed in the blender.
He notices things about me I never noticed about myself,
Like when I'm texting and I'm upset I put a period after every 3 words,

Or how the tone of my voice, and my outfit for the day explains my mood in one word...

I would think he knows every detail about me, yet it seems we learn something new about eachother everyday.
He knows exactly how to make me upset;
yet never forgets how to make me laugh when I don't even wanna smile.
We plan for our future together, yet always live for the day.
I'm not afraid to try new things, and live life.
Some people would say I am out of my mind making one person my everything; espcially being so young, but love doesn't have an age or a limit on it.
I trust him enough to make him my best friend, my boyfriend, & happiness...
I cannot put a value on that, its the greatest feeling in the world.

Sharing everything from a big mac,
to kisses at midnight on new years.
whats mine is his and whats his is mine<3>


Love is; unconditional.
unconditionally making eachother happy, unconditionally loving the mate to your soul, unconditionally missing them even when their right there, unconditionally appreciating every little thing they do for you.
Love is about being unconditionally unconditional.

I
love
you
baby<3>