She get's me;

Meet Bianca Jade Nemelc

Also known as my best friend; I've lost count of how many arguements we've gotten into, how many times I've wanted to fling her out the window- Wheither it was being stuck listening to her complaining about how she's ugly cus she can't find a man (10th grade) , being a cyber pimp and bagging countless dudes THEN DEADING THEM, her complaining about physco EX's , complaining about my ex, or the most recent- Her boyfriend being an asshole. I stuck by my baybee's side; and she is the ONLY one that I cant take the complaining from- so no need for anyone else to get comfortable. She is the complete opposite of me and I guess thats were we grow on eachother, while she likes to say hello to every stranger on a street I like to curse them out, while she likes wierd punk dudes, I like em' hardcore.
She is the most territorial best friend and I love her for that.
When I find out my ex is cyber creepin', and cheatin I know my physco will be right there imen him saying:

SOfknGOREGOUS (8:28:07 PM): CAUGHT NIGGGGA YOU CAUGHT !! AHH


then maken remix's to songs like:

i bag mad niggas, fuck the one i got,
& im PRETTY SURE they can do me bettttaaa...


and the infamous bulletins like;








she is the jello tit's to my cantalopes.
ilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyilyily.
the bad influence to my "innocence".
ilyilyilyilyilyiulyilyilyilyilyilyilyily.
& the instigator to my problems <3>

I like being the bad influence on her and her boyfriends relationship,
and Jose pretty much wants to fight me for it, but fuck it.
BIANCA WANTS BIGGER AND BETTER COLORING BOOKS.
(you know I had to Binks)

from perverted sk8r boys to joining the cool club.

from making pigs in art class to starting problems with girls lol.

from lesbian harrassment to psycho boyfriends.

from music class to cutting class.

from eating your food to MARSHALLS !

from hickeys that are your fault i got in trouble for to fresshhhh rhymes.

from fighting stephanie clinker to halloween haunted houses.

You pretty much couldn't understand our wierd lifestyle if you tried.
We make wierd freestyles, Make bulletins putting people on blast, Talk about sex way too much, and complain about boys every other hour.we've laughed at countless things, shared mucho memories, had a shitty summer job as a cashier in a supermarket, and blow kisses to eachother from across the train tracks <3

so Dear Binks,
Your the wierdest person I've ever
come across in my 17 years of living.
I love you for that.

Love Always, Desi

Youuu tighhttttttt.

Note to envious one's; If you don't like me, dont flatter yourself darling- your far from the only being who has a special liking for me. Get in line, If you don't have "haters" your doing something wrong.
P.S. I feed off of the "hate"

Letter of motivation.

Why would you do this to me?

Why would you put me in a place where I feel I need you to feel complete?

Why treat me like just another girl, when I've done so much more to make you aware your not just another guy?

You've took so much more then was given in this relationship and I let you get away with it, nd for that very reason I can find it in my heart to forgive you but I cannot find it to forget what you've done to me.

Every lie thrown at me was a dagger of reality, it taught me to be independent, and aware, independent as to where I am now my own happiness and aware of the selfish people much like yourself out there just after the joy of seeing my breakdown.

You did not take the best of me, you just barely scratched the surface, and just as every scar,

I will heal.

The difference between you and me is, I will see your name, and smile upon the good times and growth sinse you've been gone- you will see my name and die a little inside because you lost me.

You will come running back to me,But these arms that you took advantage of is no longer open for your own satisfaction.

Every girl from hear on out will just be a reminder that you lost the best thing to happend to you, and the fact that I will be happy will haunt you in your sleep. Be clear you did not break me you don't have enough power on my life to break me, I broke myself. I let someone else control my happiness setting myself up for the heartbreak to come-

And now; Nobody could break me, nobody can damage me, and best of all I cannot hurt myself no longer. I've had that moment of weakness,

-That moment where I needed to walk alone just to remind myself that I could. I found it so hard to find the courage to do this, because for some reason I saw the past better then it actually was, the present worse then it actually is, and a future without you less resolved then it will be. And after this all I can say is...

Thank you for breaking me, thank you for making me feel low and worthless, thank you for those lies, thank you for reminding me that my friends were right about you,You've taught me how to love myself without searching for the love of somebody else and for that, Thank you for creating somebody who is unbreakable.

Love always,

Desire.

A bronx tale,

SO, while I was in the Bronx for a couple of days, I've tooken notice to something I never really took the time out to look out for- The amount of young parents living in the Bronx has increased crazy amounts.

While on the 9 bus I saw, baby carriage after baby carriage with noone but a parent no older then 18 pushing it.... Its very sad to see what if those kids had dreams and gave it all up to be a mother, Kids shouldn't have kids; This is such a touchy subject because there are so many views on teen sex that kids don't know what to do. 95 % of kids first tell their parents their having sex when they are pregnant....

I love kids, But I also like to admire them from a far.
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I have writers block when it comes to this subject.

blogspot is the new myspace?

It seem's as though everytime I go on somebodies myspace page their all reppin blogspot...


.........UH WTF ? sinse when does majority of cyber world blog?
it lost its mystery; I just made this account but i've had a blog sinse I was in 8th grade.
wtf.


urgh

people are gay.


and their giving blogspot a bad name, with their pointlessness.
and they all blog about the same shit "uniqueness"
.... IF YOU WERE SO UNIQUE YOU WOULDN'T BE TALKING THE SAME SHIT EVERYONE ELSE TALKS IN THEIR BLOGS.




and for those of you who are against the blog shit,
I give ya niggas a couple months before you make one, so yeah fuck off.


fucking poser's.

Plastic hearts.

Blessed are the hearts that bend
They shall never be broken but i wonder if there is no breaking then there is no healing; and if there is no healing then there is no learning; and if there is no learning then there is no struggle
-& isn't struggle apart of life?
Must all hearts be broken?
Is there no joy without sorrow?
Without sorrow joy is just happiness,
Joy cannot truly rejoice unless it has seen darker days; that define the existence of true Joy.
Further more- good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
















A little randomness that pretty much made my day;
Jay-Z is releasin the blueprint 3!
here's a sample of one of the songs kanye west produced.
(pause the music on my page)
It makes me so excited I posted it 91348 times!!

blogofemotions.

"sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past,

and sometimes we bury our regrets by promising to change our ways."

*stops*
*pause*



FUCK YOUR FEELINGS NIGGUH!!!

Isn't this the truth,

...lmfao, I love her.

One simple thing

Know your rank nigga,


Meaning know your mother fuckin' place before you try to run shit.

..Im always on top;
Even in my grave i'll still be above you.



Goodnight.


-The fuckin' boss; Desire.

Truth & Lifestyles

So Im back from the city.

Had a great time. :]


But lets recap, so on my way to the city my stepfather and I were listening to the radio & they were talking about how Miley Cyrus just got a million dollar deal to be the spokeswoman for lifestyle condoms, & like all the crazy grown ups were calling in and saying its a bad idea and just had negative views on it, because their little children look up to her and whatever; and how shes just 15 years old; and they should find somebody else to be the spokeswoman.
Well I think the situation needs the input of a child from this generation-
I support Miley Cyrus to be the spokeswoman the fact that she is 15 should have nothing to do with it because at 15 I was probably the only virgin out of my whole crew of friends. The truth of the matter is by 12, 13 children are becoming curious and they are doing things that adults now a days didn't do until they were 17, or 18. It sucks but ITS TRUE. At 12 I was in a class with two pregnant girls, It is happening and these kids are doing things at younger and younger ages.
what is so wrong about what she will be promoting? Shes promoting sex- yeah sure but promoting it in a positive way, shes not saying "hey kids pull your pants down and have a ball!"
the message thats trying to be sent out is- yeah teenagers do have sex- but do it the smart way.
Its better to have them protecting themselves then having nothing at all.
So what's the whole commotion? yeah she's young, yeah shes looked up to by many but that is the exact reason they chose her- Lifestyles could of easily found someone such as, Paris Hilton, Brittney Spears, Lindsay Lohan, or just an average adult- nobody would turn down a million dollar deal. But thats typical, and would be targeting the same audience which isn't the voices of tomorrow- its not targeting the people most affected by unprotected sex- its not targeting teenagers. Choosing a 15 year old to be the face of the condom is not common at all. Woman now and planned parenthood are over flooded daily with not adults- but teenagers, the harsh truth of it is SEX DOES HAPPEN & more and more teens are getting STD's or getting pregnant everyday theres nothing wrong with her getting on a commercial and sending a positive message out to the world- its not going to have an affect on every single person- But it can take one to make a difference.
Adults buy condoms, Men and Woman carry condoms.
Teenagers? Not so much their either embarrassed to buy some or scared to ask their parents to take them to the store to get some so why not have a teenager promote the product, its not promoting anything that hasn't been done yet.
Its not like children don't turn on the TV and see a Trojan commercial or a KY jelly commercial SEX IS EVERYWHERE - sex is put out in the public everyday, sex is being peer pressured more and more I know 3rd graders who know more about sex then I do.
The adults need to wake up and see that "mommies little baby" is actually the schools biggest player and "daddies little girl" is opening her legs to the community.


So I support Miley Cyrus for thinking about taking the deal- Shes not a baby shes a teenager and a young adult and everyone needs to wake up and see that child stars do grow up and they need to make grown up moves to be respected as not a child- but a young woman.
And so what if she was on the Disney channel,
Brittney Spears was on the Mickey Mouse club and look at how she turned out.